DISCLAIMER: *bows to Joss* cuz he owns everything (Well I hope that he doesn't own my soul tho I fear he does.) I do not own the characters of "BtVS" and "Angel", nor do I own any rights to the television shows "Buffy the Vampire Slayer" and "Angel". They were created by Joss Whedon and belong to him, Mutant Enemy, Sandollar Television, Kuzui Enterprises, 20th Century Fox Television and the WB Television Network,...
No copyright infringement intended!
Couple: "Angel" / "Buffy" -- of course!!!
Song: "We Will Meet Again" by VAST - Jon Crosby - "Music For People"
TIMELINE: The end of both series.
SPOILERS: Think not.
SYNOPSIS: It's the end of the world - or not.
DISTRIBUTION: and every site that has my other fics
AUTHOR'S NOTES: Buffy POV.
FEEDBACK: Do vampires drink blood?
THANKS TO: Everything that B/A stands for and Jon.
RATING: You can watch the show, you can read. -- Angst

Yes, it's dark outside - and inside. It's very lonely, there's no hope and the yearning eats you up.

I know that. I feel it, believe me - all the time.

I still fight.

I know that I'll never win.

***

He fights right here beside me. We back each other up like it used to be, like it used to be when the world seemed to make sense.

From time to time he brushes my arm and we look at each other. He seems so sad, sad that we have to do this, that our destiny wouldn't let us escape.

He looks deep into my eyes and something will hit him because he didn't watch out for another blow.

Why has he to pay for everything? For every moment of peace.

Armageddon. That's it? The end of the world?

I can't believe it, I mean I look around and it's dark, but wasn't it always like this?

Dark.

We're fighting an army.

Nobody ever prepared me for this! Nobody ever told me.

Not even Giles.

Giles.

May he rest in peace.

I can't even cry a tear. I cried all of them already, there's nothing left.

I lost them all, all of them.

And I couldn't even fight it.

They just died, they wanted to help me and paid with their lives.

It feels like I have killed them, because they did it for me.

They died for me.

That was it, their friendship cost them their lives.

I want to scream, scream at The Powers That Be, yell. Sadists!

I get hit and stumble backwards, my stomach burns.I try to concentrate on what's going on around me, fight, fight, fight.

There's blood everywhere.

In my shoes.

I look around and stumble over a corpse, a child.

An innocent child.

The fight has decreased, I can feel that Angel looks at me.

I pick the little body up and carry it to a green island in between the war, I place it under a tree.

I think I see the child smile.

It's getting really hot, slow but steady.

Smoke drifts everywhere.

Angel slowly approaches.

We look around, ghosts are rising, demons.

Without thinking our hands entwine.

We start to run, run to the center.

The only light that illuminates the night is from the fires that burn in the streets, the cars, the houses, the bodies.

I get slower, I feel like throwing up.

Angel looks concerned, he stops and cradles me in his arms. I start to sob into his chest.

For the first time I really look at him since it started.

His face, bruises and cuts everywhere. I want to touch him, make it all better. His sad eyes are staring down at me with so much love.

"I am tired, Angel, so tired."

He bends down and kisses me with so much love, I want to cry.

He crushes me to him and hugs me with so much force that I can't breathe.

I can hear him.

"I love you."

We start to run again.

I wish we could run from everything, run and never look back.

When we arrive the hellmouth is nearly open.

We arrived in time.

What we have to do is, compared to everything else, nearly simple.

I thank Wesley and Giles in my thoughts for their preparations.

Angel starts to recite the spell and I pour a black liquid into the still little hole.

We watch the hellmouth closing itself, sealing forever.

He reaches for my hand and stares in disbelief at the remains of our fight.

We both can't believe that it's over.

It turns quiet.

Suddenly we hear a scream in the settling silence. He frees my hand, grabs his sword and runs.

Some demons seem to still be alive.

I look up into the sky, it's close to dawn.

All I can think of is that Angel has to hide from the sun. I search for him with my eyes, but can't see him.

My heart is madly pounding in my chest, where is he?

Suddenly it starts to snow, it gets cold fast and the air smells fresh.

I see him running towards me, he laughs.

I can see his breath in the cool air.

He breathes!

It hits me with force. He is alive!

I start to run and he catches me, whirls me through the air.

He laughs and it is pure light, he is flushed, panting and he laughs.

I kiss him, rain kisses all over his face, tears running down my cheeks, he kisses them away.

We hold each other as close as we can, snowflakes in our hair.

Suddenly I hear a sound, I can't tell what it is.

Angel stumbles and we both fall to the ground. I don't know what happened.

I push him, shake his shoulders.

"Angel?"

Tears are streaming down my face.

I scream.

"Angel?"

He stares at me, I shake him.

He opens his mouth and a gush of blood escapes.

"Buffy."

He's silent, forever silent.

I can hear myself screaming, crying.

I shake him, kiss him. I turn him over and try to get him up, but I can't.

I see the hole in his belly, as big as my fist. It goes right through him.

I look down and I can't believe it. I touch my own blood.

It's warm, warm and sticky.

I look around, but can't find a sign of life.

The snow turns red.

I manage to cradle his head in my lap.

Where have you gone
My love my friend
Somewhere without the rain
I feel afraid now, I feel alone
Will we meet again //

Is that it? All we did, all we had to do lead us here? We were never destined to win, we were here to lose. Is that it?

"Is that it?"

I scream it through my tears.

Angel's face turns cold, I watch over him. I hope he found peace wherever he is.

"I love you."

I stroke his face, my blood runs over one of his temples.

I start to feel cold.

Can you recall what we once knew
Somewhere without the pain
I feel afraid now, but not alone
We will meet again//

I wonder if he can hear me, if he knows that I never stopped loving him.

I can't hear your voice
But you know I feel your soul//

Somehow I can feel him, I know he's here with me.

I can't hear your voice
But you know I feel your soul//

He's waiting.

It's cold and I'm so tired, so tired.

I lay my head on his chest, the place where I wanted to fall asleep every night.

Where have you gone
My love my friend
Somewhere without any pain
I'm not afraid now I'm not alone
We will meet again//

My eyelids are too heavy, I can't open them.

It's so dark and I'm afraid.

I feel dizzy, endlessly dizzy and I let myself fall.

Somebody catches me, strong arms.

He kisses my eyelids and I open them.

He smiles at me and I smile back.

I kiss him.

"I love you, Angel."

We won.

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